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Dear Carol,   Thank-you for your card.   It was very sweet and loving and heartbreaking.   I am grateful for the many many kind and loving words.   I am sorry for the hurt.   We had so many good years together and many wonderful times and memories.   Please let's cherish all of those good moments and forget the heartbreaks.   Let's be best friends once more with a world of memories and five wonderful children to share and enjoy in the present.   I miss your laughter, your smiles, your good nature and generous spirit. I hope you will let me enjoy them again.   Love & Sweet Kisses,   |

23.2.07 23:18 Permalink / comment

i wrote this back in 2003 I wrote this on May 24,(our wedding anniversary) 2003 after some particularly torturous phase of the finality of the separation / divorce.  I recently had a (somewhat disturbing) dream and felt that I wanted you to have this (expression of what my marriage meant to me).     for the times you made it all better, for the times you made me feel better, my pains and troubles that you eased, for the precious comfort you always gave m e, for all the times you made me smile, giggle and laugh, for all that you shared with me, that you taught me, for your love, your thoughtfulness, your caring, your utter understanding, your unwavering support,  how preciously you treated me, for your gentle nature, you made me feel wanted, loved, appreciated, for making me feel whole, for making me feel normal like I was the most beautiful woman in the universe,   for the wonderful babies you gave me, for the wonderful father you w ere to our babies, for your unabashed pride in your wife and your children, for proclaiming it to the world,   for your compassion toward my family toward most everyone, for the glowing pride I felt in being your wife, for all the fun we shared, the adventures, for all the wonderful times, for your sustenance during the sad times, for your love, for your goodness, your openness, for your love of your family……I thank you……..   I lost the most precious man I ever knew, he disappeared about five years ago, I no longer try to understand the man you have become, it wasn’t perfect, alas nothing ever is, I just wanted you to know how much I once treasured you, that I was honoured and that I once felt blessed and ultimately happy and content to be your wife.     I put this sentiment into a card and left it in his mailbox.  The envelope says Happy Birthday I**

22.2.07 00:33 Permalink / comment

the trip of a lifetime.... I could never see myself taking another big trip again.  Unless one of my grown kids took me somewhere exotic, finances and opportunity seemed out of my reach as far into the future as I could see. Not that I have been an avid traveller, but flying somewhere other than cottage country in Ontario, was always very exciting. My mother has been to Australia a number of times in the past 10 years to visit her brother and nephew in Canberra.  It has been great for her to do that as her brother is the only close family member she has left.  He has paid her way, as my mum would never have that kind of cash to fly that far around the world.  She is almost 80 now (God I cant believe that), and has told me that because the flight to Australia is so long and exacting, she would not like to undertake that trip again, at least not on her own, but at the same time, she knows that her older brother and she might not see each other again. I have been corresponding by email with my cousin in Australia and we get on very well.  He is a couple of years younger than me.  When I finally talked to him on the phone, while visiting my mum, he told me that if I ever wanted to come over, he would gladly pay. Somehow, it has all come together and both my cuz and his dad want to pay for me and my mum to come over and visit, probably in October of this year, when it will be their winter or is it spring!!??   So I am excited that I will be visiting down under soon with my dear mum…as long as we both stay healthy.  My mum is healthy, but near 80, whereas I have not been very kind to my body for many years.  So we will see, but at least it is possible and attainable,  yeahhhhh

22.2.07 00:28 Permalink / comment

dear cuz Dear Mi, I hope you and Gt are keeping well.  My ma and I were chatting about our wonderful upcoming trip.  She said that she hopes that Gt is not fretting or stressing over what having 2 women staying in your home might be like!!  Needless to say, she does not want her brother to be stressed, and of course neither do I! So cuz, if your dad is worried about having me along and wondering what I am like, please reinforce to him that I am even less fussy than my mum.  We are both laid back and enjoy a good joke, are lots of fun and adapt to our surroundings very well! Tell Gt that I am so looking forward to seeing him again and that for the past 7 years I have shared my house with only sons....we will all have a great time together! I have to admit that I am not the greatest housekeeper in the world, especially while bringing up 5 kids.  Actually you and Gerhardt are probably tidier and more conscientious than me.  Having said that I have to say that my mum is conscientious, and often tries to budge me into action tidying up my home.... but as the boys (3 are still at home), aren't into tidy too much, it gets somewhat overwhelming (they do help, but sometimes it is like moving mountains to get more than a few chores done).  I know if I lived by myself, my home would be better up to scratch.  My mum grumbles a little when she is here, but when she rolls up her sleeves, I get motivated and spurred into action.  It seems when I have unsolicited help, I can do it so much better. So, there you have it...my dirty little secret (one of them at least ).  I also dont particularly like to cook.  I love good food, but find that I eat to live rather than live to eat.  Then again, I am not a lousy cook, I just dont like to cook much.  Having just put myself down a little, I have to say that as a mother, I believed it better to spend a lot of time with my children rather than having an immaculate house (and lets not forget the fact that I spent my child rearing years working outside the home as well). Alright M, I may have rambled on a bit back there, but as I ramble, you should be getting to know me better, huh? Anyway, cuz, just impress on your dad, that I will be an unassuming, very comfortable houseguest and grateful recipient of a dream holiday with my dear mum! lots of love   Carol x

22.2.07 00:14 Permalink / comment

My brother, the architect, quoted in the TOSTAR Tall tales from the past   Feb 18, 2007 04:30 AM Christopher Hume All three are going for *LEED (Leadership in Energy and Environmental Design) silver certification. That green building rating system, which has become the North American standard for evaluating sustainable architecture, is based on criteria such as materials, heating and cooling efficiency, green roofs and water recycling. The highest rating is platinum, followed by gold and silver.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ R S of WZMH Architects, the Toronto firm that designed the Bay-Adelaide Centre, also believes the three towers represent a departure from tradition. "I think there's a new generation of office tower," he observes. "The towers going up now are quite different now that things like *LEED have entered the equation. Sept. 11 also had an impact on the modern tower; a lot of owners are looking to models used in New York, where most office towers have enhanced security such as turnstiles at the entrance and are also beefed up structurally. In case you've forgotten, the Bay-Adelaide Centre was started back in late 1980s but fell apart in 1991, soon after construction began. All that remained of that complex was a six-storey service shaft and the exquisite Cloud Gardens, the enclosed tropical plant greenhouse and one of Toronto's overlooked gems. "At Bay-Adelaide, our client was committed to LEED," S says. "It's an all-encompassing thing related to mechanical and technical systems. But we also have bicycle storage areas and change rooms. There will be a tunnel under Adelaide St. to connect with Scotia Plaza and the underground city. The idea is to make transit use more practical." WZMH will also ensure that all paints, carpeting, coatings, adhesives and sealants used inside the structure are low in VOCs (volatile organic compounds). The roof will be covered in a special material to reduce the heat island effect that causes buildings – and cities – to overheat. And, S, "The architects have located the cistern so that rain water from the roof and public plaza can be captured, filtered and used for irrigation and flushing toilets." He admits there is "definitely a cost" for LEED, but adds that many of the measures, such as air-quality systems, pay for themselves. "A lot of what is done to achieve LEED certification is just good design," S insists. "Pretty soon, these sorts of steps will be required in building codes." Sw agrees: "LEED silver is becoming the norm, not the exception. There are many ways to achieve LEED rating; the buildings we're designing in Toronto go well beyond LEED."

21.2.07 23:07 Permalink / comment

? There were entries in the old 20six blog, now all my category entries are just all lumped together....

21.1.07 11:18 Permalink / comment

Slava well I did go, and what a night!  No I did not meet a new guy, well not my age anyway, but the ex was there, and he came up to me and was nice to me.  He looks weird, like he has a frozen smile on his face, but who knows. I talked to lots of people, including the 'cronies' (ie, people I  had known for all the years of my marriage, who used to come over one or  two saturdays a month and we'd play games, eat, drink and be merry until the big break up when I never heard from them again. Ah well, I know how it goes, especially after reading an article in 'Divorce' magazine titled:  'Who gets custody of the friends'? When I got home at about 4 am, Ca told me that Evan had passed out drunk and was throwing up!   Aghhh, but  Ca is a good mature 20 year old and was taking good care of his little bro. When I had left home, Evan who for the past 3 months has rediscovered sociabilty with his peers (after mainly hanging out with his older bros and their buds for the past few years) had invited Chris his bud from grade school and about 7 other kids to celebrate Chris's 18th birthday.  I was somewhat leery, however Ca had told me he would keep things in line and Evan told me they would not be boozing.... ha, ha.... Luckily his 'girlfriend Jenna apparently was looking after Ev who had been barfing his guts out and then passing out and Cal said that he and Jenna kicked everyone out, but that Chris had helped Ca tidy up!  By the way, everyone said that I looked great which was nice to hear because I thought I looked great too.  I had straightened my hair with my new 100% ceramic hair straightener and tried LOreal Lash something or other.  It is the 2 step process where you put on the white lash lengthener first and then the black mascara topping. I am happy to say that my slava friend's kids and their buds ( a little younger than my group) seem to love me, which is really nice. Oh, and there was no ice to break when I arrived, solo and nervous.  As soon as I entered, I heard call 911, he's out....oh, Carol you're a nurse, this guy just keeled over....  So I did my nurse thing, and finally the guy came to....  and went up to lie down. So all in all it was an extremely eventful evening....

21.1.07 11:07 Permalink / comment

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